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Thursday, September 15, 2005
Go Away
You people scare me. You really do. There are too many of you, too many who know me and too many who lurk and too many who read and worry and take things personally. There is a narrow band in which I can write without revealing what I don’t want everyone to know.
Mostly, this narrow band is self-imposed. I’m too timid to express my inner thoughts with confidence and impunity, so I keep them to myself. And so this blog turns into what I don’t want it to be: A diary of events rather than a journal of thoughts. You know what I do, but not what I think.
There is much I don’t write but wish I could. Like how I poured myself into my sister’s wedding in no small part because I don’t know if I’ll have the chance to experience the same thing for myself, and also because I wanted my family to have the experience of seeing their child get married. I may not be able to fulfill that for them, which makes me sad.
I know this is every blogger’s dilemma: What to reveal and what not to reveal. As time passes the dilemma only intensifies as readership increases.
If I had to do this all over again I would seriously consider anonymity. No photos, no names. Just honest thoughts. That, I think, would be more beneficial for readers. What I do is of little importance, but what I think and what I struggle with and what I believe and experience internally could be.
But my complaints are tempered because I also have a lot of fun with this blog the way it is. I enjoy knowing that friends and family can check in on me whenever they want and wherever they are and have at least some idea of what I’m doing. There is comfort there, and some form of community, as well.
So I guess the moral of the story is: Ignore my whining. You’re just fine where you are.
Posted by Aaron on September 15, 2005 4:58 PM

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